There is Something to Be Said for Unlimited Texting...

  Can I just say that I really like where I am in life? I really do. Sure, there's things I am impatient for, and things that aren't as easy as I wish, and I really wish I had a job... but God is just really working in my life. I can see Him everywhere, and I can't be more grateful to Him for loving me so much that He is active in my life. And whether He is giving or taking away... telling me yes or no, I know that He is creating something beautiful out of my life... that He's in control, that He has the big picture.
  My pastor once said that we are God's work of art, that we are like His poetry or His painting. That struck a chord in me, I understood what he was saying, because I love to create poetry, I love the feel of the words coming together like beads on a necklace, creating something that draws the eye and is beautiful. I have a special affection for my creations... the pictures I make with the words. And so how much more must God feel for us... His creations... His works of art.
  I can know that in my life, I will follow where God leads me, that where He wants me is the only place I want to be, because that is where my heart is... where He is. I am just so thankful that He has brought me to this place, because I never could have gotten there on my own. He truly is the air I need to breathe.
  So, on another note, things are still going good between this guy and I. We are keeping things friendly until a certain birthday occurs. I appreciate his willingness to wait and to do things right. He's respectful of me and I appreciate that. I look forward to what God has for us in the future.
  To close, here is a poem I wrote the other day:

You Can Shape the Silence with Your Hands

 

You can shape the silence with your hands

Into whatever you want it to be

And you can change the words around  

To fit your meaning-

Or lack thereof-

Behind your eyes;

Watch out, the emptiness you cling to

Is your disguise.

And words, what more are they

Than empty, antiquated ships?

Unless you breathe life into them

Then it's "nothing" that you say.

And love, it doesn't last,

Forever's no longer forever,

And forever was broken in half

By the way hearts don't want to beat

And be who they

Were made to be. 

More About a Certain Young Man...

Okay, I didn't have much time to post about this guy I told you about last time, so I'll go into a bit more detail here.
I met this guy at swing dance and instantly noticed him because he's really cute! His older brother's girlfriend asked me to teach him to dance and he ended up asking me to dance nearly every dance that night, which would have weirded me out, but he was just so nice! And we ended up talking quite a bit and I found out he loved the Lord and was super smart along with really cute, so I was kinda getting a crush. He asked if I wanted to get coffee sometime and so we did, and we've been talking and hanging out ever since. So far I've seen that he's kind, and good with kids, gets along with my family, has real musical talent, his guitar skills are crazy and he has a beautiful voice. The first time he began to sing I quite literally started and my stomach flipped around, it was beautiful, and I didn't know such a wonderful sound was about to come out of his mouth.
We've had several good conversations, and I love how he challenges me to think things over, to dig deeper and to study things for myself, to deepen my relationship with the Lord. It's beautiful. He likes to write, and he writes beautiful songs, and also paints and does photography. He's a perfect gentleman and opens doors and such, which I love! I've never had somebody do that before!
All in all he's just a really sweet guy, who I like more every time I see. I just can't believe how blessed I am, because as I get to know him more I see more and more things that I've prayed for in a guy. He wants to be a minister and write. I really admire him, and I almost can't believe he likes me!!!
Over and out!
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Thoughts to Share

Alright, so, I don't have anything in particular to post about today, I don't know, I just feel like throwing some stuff out there.
  How about this: I've been thinking a lot about this lately, Christians seem to have gotten terribly complacent, happy to have fun, make being Christians look exactly like being unbelievers, and judge the world, since we have it all figured out. I must say this: that's NOT cool. I spend a lot of my earlier years as a believer wasting time being complacent, reading my bible once in a great while and going to church for the social benefits. That is NOT enough! It's crazy. I've found that when you live your life for God, you really live life. God is SO good, and He WANTS to have a real, intimate relationship with us. He loves us like crazy, and how it must break His heart when we just go through the motions and ignore Him so we can comfortably live our lives. Just read Songs of Solomon, and you will get an idea of how incredibly much He loves us.
  He created us to be SO much more than this. He made us beautiful! Did you know God thinks we're gorgeous? He really does! Once again, read Songs of Solomon. He made us to live crazy full lives! Yet we want to sit in church and sip our Starbucks and listen to sermons that are nice, make us feel good and don't make anyone uncomfortable. We want to stay within the neat little lines contemporary Christianity has drawn for us, when it's not supposed to be like that at all! God made each of us unique, and He has relationships with each of us, and it's different with every person. And we were meant to get our hands dirty! We were meant to get out there and be His hands and feet, go out for Him! When God asked the heavens "Who will I send? Who will go for us?" then Isaiah jumped up and shouted "Here I am! Send me!"
Do we beg to go out for God and work for Him? Is that our passion? Is that where we find our meaning? In showing His love to the world? In going out and making disciples, instead of just church-going followers?
Please don't get me wrong, I love church, I especially love the worship, but church has become too much of an institution. We are His bride, His beloved. Do we act like it?
And how about this? I met a guy! A really nice one too! God is SO good to me! I met a guy at a swing dance who loves the Lord, who makes me think and challenges me to dig deeper into things, who is kind and gentlemanly and good with the younger siblings, who is insanely cute, and is just a really cool guys who shares some common interests! Updates shall come in regularly on this developement!
Goodnight all! God bless!